One night I met a girl named
Elaine, who said, "Call me Clyde Drexler." Her jeans were ripped kind of like how Clyde Drexler's jeans
might be if he was homeless, but Clyde Drexler isn't homeless. He's a millionaire or something because
he was an amazing basketball player. I think both me and Clyde Drexler would be upset if a shitty indie band
began calling themselves Clyde Drexler, but I think it's bound to happen. I don't think this girl was an amazing
basketball player or a shitty indie band so I did not call her "Clyde
Drexler." I did not know why
she wanted me to call her Clyde Drexler. Maybe she was upset her real name was stupid.
Once I pretended I was Clyde
Drexler and tried to jump off my bureau and dunk on the miniature basketball
hoop hanging from my door. I broke
the bureau, the miniature hoop, and my wrist. My father went bald, the tiny horse my mother had been
hiding in the pantry for Christmas died, and the mailman accidentally gave us
two Crate & Barrel catalogues.
I told the Elaine who wanted me to
call her Clyde Drexler, "I hope you go bald." She said, "What's bald." I said, "Go to a barber and ask them
what happened to the miniature horse." She said she would and then vomited on Clyde Drexler's
ripped jeans.
Later that night I called my mother
and said, "Every girl I meet named Elaine is ugly." I wrote my father a letter shortly
after calling my mother and said, "Dear Father, I met another girl named
Elaine. Like the rest of them she
was overweight and her laugh was annoying, but she couldn't help it. I kind of pitied her. When she was bothering someone else I
thought, 'Poor girl.' When she
came back to talk to me I thought, 'Turn bald. Turn bald. Turn bald.' Anyway, I wanted to say, 'Hello,' and
if you find another baby in the ditch do not name it Elaine."
When my father finally replied to
my letter a few years later he said, "I once slept with a girl named
'Elaine' in 'college'. She had a
plain face, but was not very overweight. She asked me to call her 'Commodore Brown'. I said, 'Fuck you, it's bad enough you're name is Laney
Griddles Bunsky.' She said, 'How
did you know my middle name.' I
said, 'I read the letters on your desk from your father while you were in the
bathroom looking in the mirror wishing your name was Cindy.' She said she didn't like the name
Cindy. I said, 'Your father seems
to think highly of her.' She asked
me not to talk about her sister so I told her, 'Your pillow has mold on it,'
and I threw it out the window. This got her excited and she said something about how she liked my
unpredictability which was kind of odd. I really wasn't that unpredictable considering I ended up sleeping with
her, leaving before she woke up, and never calling. I think I remember her calling me at some point and leaving
an angry message. I remember she
said, 'I thought you were special, but you're a jingoistic tug-off like the
rest of them.'"
Sometimes babies are born. I think everyone knows this. What I meant to say was sometimes when babies are born they
are delivered from a woman's belly. I met a doctor who called this process, "portal
hatching." He was my dentist. He was not very good with either teeth
or babies. He never told me half
my teeth grew in backwards. Two
out of every five portals he hatched appeared to be empty either because he
accidentally prescribed abortion pills in the second trimester or because he
forgot to put the lead vest on his pregnant patients when he took x-rays of
their teeth. Once during a casual
conversation following a routine cleaning he told me, "If I had a family I
would name them all Elaine." I wasn't quite sure what to say, but after a few seconds I said,
"Isn't there a movie about that?"
Another time I was walking
home. Monotony existed in every
crack of the sidewalk. I looked up
and saw a homeless person holding a sign and could relate to how a few bad
decisions sometimes could lead to not showering, to being hungry, to begging me
for change, to me saying, 'sorry, my pockets are empty,' to me wondering if the
homeless person's name was Elaine, to me wondering what happened to that girl
named Elaine who I went to elementary school with, to me wondering what
happened to everyone from elementary school, to me being interrupted by the
homeless person saying 'it's okay Poppycock Poppycock,' to me being curious
about what exactly 'poppycock' meant, to me ignoring the armies of defective
weekend robots loosening their business casual in the surrounding bars filled
with manufactured-paint-by-number splendor and nuns of the cosmetic industry
playing games and getting free drinks while they listened to unspoken whispers
of 'Please let my dick crawl up in you tonight' and ignored the inexperienced
ones who painted bull's eyes on their targets and missed completely which
usually led to these rookies blowing out their brains at the end of the night
with things they sometimes called, 'the AK-47' and finding crusted used tissues
next to their computer monitors in the morning.
The girl named Elaine I knew from
my elementary years happened to be the only person who ever loved me in second
grade. She was known as 'plump
raisin' from time to time. One
time I heard someone call her "Ben Franklin's chubby revolver." I'm not sure what they meant by that
comment. Sometimes at recess she
would tell all the teachers on duty the two of us were married. She tried to prove this by showing off
a ring. It was nothing more than
magic marker lines drawn on her finger. Luckily for me, I wasn't concerned with settling down to start a family
at that point. I don't think I
even liked girls. I was
fortunate. I ignored the cries
from my supposed first wife. I'm
glad I didn't give in and agree to the marriage. I don't know what I would do with that type of commitment in
my life at the present moment especially if it was the result of a poor
decision when I was seven. Instead, I spent the majority of second grade recesses digging for
treasure and throwing pinecones at people on the swings. I fought a few invisible ninjas.
I had seen her sitting alone at the
bar, with a glass of wine, and a book. Empty stools told each other stories around her. It was weird to see someone sitting
alone in a bar reading. Maybe she
was sick of dating. She had hit a
rough patch, a succession of weirdoes. The first admitted he got his hair highlighted every two weeks. Number two maybe said, "I've been
meaning to get one of those," when she suggested they exchange emails or
maybe he said something odd like, "I lost my internet. I couldn't find it. Then my lawnmower broke again, so I
fixed it and that's when I remembered that I had used my internet wire as a
starter chord." Weirdo number
three might not have been much of a weirdo. She probably fucked him. He just didn't call and when she called him a 'Jingoistic
tug-off,' he said, "I kind of have a family and I only slept with you so I
could tell my son a nice bedtime story that'll make him grow into a strong
young man." Maybe she liked
books and information and being studious for no reason other than being
studious and because people often see pretty girls being studious and they
wondered to themselves, "Why is that pretty girl being
studious?" Maybe she liked to
be thought about. Maybe she wasn't
reading at all, her eyes scanning pages and forgetting them as she thought
about something else. I've never
seen the inside of a girl's subconscious, but I imagine it looks like a simple
card game with friends, until you look closer and notice that each of the cards
has a reproduction of H.R. Giger's Penis Landscape on it and the girls are all
wearing see-thru cookie jars on their heads with an infinite supply of ice
cream flavored oxygen. And if you
dare to peek under the table you'll see that half the ladies have tiny midgets
nibbling and whispering pleasurable secrets into their crotches and the other
half have little puppies licking their toes. Every twenty minutes the puppies and midgets trade places.
I left her at her spot, alone on
the stool, and continued home.
When I walked through the doors of
the bar five minutes later she was still there. It was dark. I
thought, "Her poor eyes." I was standing next to her at this point. I did not know what to say. I tried to lean over and see what she was reading. She looked at me. I was standing uncomfortably
close. She said,
"Hello?" I took a step
back. I said, "Hello
Elaine." She told me this wasn't
her name. I began saying, "Of
course not. Elaine is a stupid
name," but she stopped me and held up a finger asking me to wait a second. Her other hand moved back and forth
across the page. When she finished
she looked up. She said
"Hello," again. I did
not know what to say. "Ummm,
nevermind," I said and walked out the door. When I got home someone was watching a movie in the living
room. I stopped for a bit to watch
and saw Emilio Estevez talking to Rob Lowe talking to Demi Moore talking to Judd
Nelson talking Ally Sheedy and I said, "Oh, isn't that the movie where all
the characters are named Elaine?"