i don't want to write any more
poems about ceilings
but they are such a big part of
my life
i am staring at one right now,
for example,
and have been for a while
i am thinking, "look at
what you've done to me"
but i'm not really sure who i am
addressing
i know this isn't the first poem
i have started by saying
"i don't want to"
something something
this affects me in many ways
not the least of which is
reckless usage of common phrases
that require no individual
thought or effort
such as
"not the least of
which"
i don't know what i am saying
out loud right now
and whenever i can't sleep, like
right now for example,
laying next to you
i stare at the ceiling
and think about if our
relationship ended
what i would say to everyone i
know
it is in such a state
that i've taken to being honest
with you
about what i am thinking
when i stare at the ceiling
not sleeping
laying next to you
and i've taken to saying things
like, "i've taken to"
because i cannot escape the need
to use phrases that require little effort
i say them out loud
but i am not an opera singer
i can't apologize enough for
that
or for my lack of quality formal
attire
i know you aren't the clinical
definition of crazy
but i think i'll tell everyone
that you are